School sucks! And yeah, I always hated school but this time I am paying A LOT of money to go to school. Okay, technically *I* am not paying to go to school but someone is. I've found myself asking WTF I am doing thinking I can do this, way too often recently.
About my classes: At the beginning of the semester I signed up for 3 classes, one being a late starting fast track online class, college orientation. The first few weeks were great, I did my papers on time. Did really good on one test, and okay on the other. I took notes, I was excited to be there ect. Then the online class started and I finally realized something I always suspected....I can NOT do online classes. Long story short, the class was set to end while I was at the beach, instead of doing all the assignments BEFORE I left for the beach, I was trying to do homework at the beach in between everything else. I crammed the night everything was due, and turned in enough to get a C. Which was fucking stupid, b/c is literally the easiest class I'll take in my college career. Even after grades were posted, the professor emailed me and was like hey stupid bitch, I am refusing to give out C's for this class, do the fucking work. I did the work, 2 days later and she counted none of it late!! A+!!
My Pycsh class turned to an online class due to health issues with the professor. And as I already figured out a few weeks before, I can not do online classes. We have a test Tuesday on the current cycle. Cool. I haven't opened a single slide regarding these chapters, but sure, lets take a test on it. The last time I completely bombed, b/c I couldn't pay attention long enough to study, so why not throw another bombed test in the mix. The only thing going for me is I've turned both my essays in on time. Still failing the class....
History....I enjoy the class, it's just a bore. I didn't realize when I signed up for the class that it was like pre Jesus time...It goes up to 1600 but really...who cares who ruled the Persian empire b/c it damn sure isn't me. I *think* I am passing....but the grades aren't posted like the other classes, which is so irritating. My first test was a 78 which I was so stoked about!!! I don't think I've ever gotten a grade that great on a history test. With that said, I still haven't turned in my paper that was due last week...I just can not focus enough to write it, let alone research it. Instead I am wasting time writing this, which took no effort at all....
I am tired. And yeah sure I know everyone is tired, I get it. But I cut back on my part time job to 3 days a week *hoping* they wouldn't actually schedule me all 3 days. I was wrong. I haven't had but 2 full days off (before vacation) in 3 months. And one of those days, was from me calling out of my part time job. I kept telling myself to just hang in there, and next semester I can cut back and use my school money to supplement. Except nope, of course that plan didn't work out b/c why would something work out for me. I can't focus for shit, and I am way too over school considering I've only been going for 2 months. I'm really wondering what I even got myself into.
