School Update

    School sucks! And yeah, I always hated school but this time I am paying A LOT of money to go to school. Okay, technically *I* am not paying to go to school but someone is. I've found myself asking WTF I am doing thinking I can do this, way too often recently.

    About my classes: At the beginning of the semester I signed up for 3 classes, one being a late starting fast track online class, college orientation. The first few weeks were great, I did my papers on time. Did really good on one test, and okay on the other. I took notes, I was excited to be there ect. Then the online class started and I finally realized something I always suspected....I can NOT do online classes. Long story short, the class was set to end while I was at the beach, instead of doing all the assignments BEFORE I left for the beach, I was trying to do homework at the beach in between everything else. I crammed the night everything was due, and turned in enough to get a C. Which was fucking stupid, b/c is literally the easiest class I'll take in my college career. Even after grades were posted, the professor emailed me and was like hey stupid bitch, I am refusing to give out C's for this class, do the fucking work. I did the work, 2 days later and she counted none of it late!! A+!!
    My Pycsh class turned to an online class due to health issues with the professor. And as I already figured out a few weeks before, I can not do online classes. We have a test Tuesday on the current cycle. Cool. I haven't opened a single slide regarding these chapters, but sure, lets take a test on it. The last time I completely bombed, b/c I couldn't pay attention long enough to study, so why not throw another bombed test in the mix. The only thing going for me is I've turned both my essays in on time. Still failing the class....
    History....I enjoy the class, it's just a bore. I didn't realize when I signed up for the class that it was like pre Jesus time...It goes up to 1600 but really...who cares who ruled the Persian empire b/c it damn sure isn't me. I *think* I am passing....but the grades aren't posted like the other classes, which is so irritating. My first test was a 78 which I was so stoked about!!! I don't think I've ever gotten a grade that great on a history test. With that said, I still haven't turned in my paper that was due last week...I just can not focus enough to write it, let alone research it. Instead I am wasting time writing this, which took no effort at all....

    I am tired. And yeah sure I know everyone is tired, I get it. But I cut back on my part time job to 3 days a week *hoping* they wouldn't actually schedule me all 3 days. I was wrong. I haven't had but 2 full days off (before vacation) in 3 months. And one of those days, was from me calling out of my part time job. I kept telling myself to just hang in there, and next semester I can cut back and use my school money to supplement. Except nope, of course that plan didn't work out b/c why would something work out for me. I can't focus for shit, and I am way too over school considering I've only been going for 2 months. I'm really wondering what I even got myself into.

Friday Reads

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I found this on kindle unlimited at work the other night. Half asleep and I was so confused and thought the book was about aliens and meteor hitting their house...I decided to restart it the next night and I am so glad I did! 

An old couple crippled by the grief over their son dying at 8 years old are living on a small not so friendly island in a house they built on a cliff. The story of his death is told early on, which I enjoyed b/c you can focus more on the story of how they are handling it and not trying to figure out what happened. The Grapes' are being evicted from their cliff side home due to zoning issues. The night before their eviction, a bad storm comes and a bolt of lightening strikes a cable holding the house from falling off the cliff. When the Grapes wake up the next morning, their house is in the ocean floating on volcanic rock.  Their journey continues for a couple weeks through the freezing waters. Unsure of where they are, the husband is pretty resourceful, and is able to give them electricity for water and to cook. The story is pretty incredible, they are 2 older people lost at sea and are able to hold it together. A few weeks into their journey, they come across some nomads  After almost freezing to death trying to walk to the camp, they are spotted and brought in to safety.  They live with the nomads for a few weeks, until the nomads tell them it is time to leave their current camp since the ice will be melting soon. The head of the nomads tells the Grapes, they can either contuine to travel with them to the new camp, or they can drop them off at the trading post where they will be found and brought home. Obviously, they chose to go home. 

Now here is where the story starts to be a little unrealistic in my opinion. After a death within the nomad community, and a trip back to their house on the ice to retrieve any things they may want to bring with them, they decide they don't actually want to go home, they want to sail the ocean in their little house. Which, while they were talking about it I really thought they were going to the trading spot, be rescued and get a boat and sail like normal people. Nope. They take off in their little house that's been beaten all to shit by the ice and harsh weather of the past months. They have no food, very few clothes, no radio AKA NOTHING one would need to sail the ocean. And these people are in their 60s! I'm sorry I just don't find that realstic even the slightest. Sure, they did it before, but it was out of necessity and they both almost died, multiple times. Why not get rescued, go home and actually get the things to help you survive? So dumb. 

Overall though, I did love the story and it was a nice heartwarming story about how a couple who lost any hope or ambition or really, any love for each other the night their son died, found love in each other again and learned to live. 

September Wrap-up

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I wanted to love this book and I am so sad that I didn't. Maybe at a different time I would love it, b/c the story is great. It just kind of bored me.

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What I think is interesting about this book, is it has the same sub plot (?) as the first book I read for the month. I usually pick my books by randomly scrolling Amazon, and both this and the 1st book had main characters that had imaginary friends growing up, and were eventually told they were strictly made up imaginary friends, only to find out later in their adult life that they weren't imaginary at all, and they were real people.

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I've had this book on my TBR list for awhile, and finally grabbed it on Scribd. It was a little more graphic that I expected and not that believable. There is a kid in high school who assists the cops in a case he's convinced is a serial killer. A high school kid would never have been able to get this close to a crime scene more than once, as this kid did. Even with that, the story was good. 

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Hands down the best book I read this month, maybe in the past couple months. I've read several books by this author this year and was really shocked by this book. His other books are suspense/thriller. This was just a heartbreaking story of a kid who was born with a rare eye condition. Highly recommend this book!!

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I love this author, having read a book of hers years ago. Her books always have some sort of twist at the end that I always enjoy. I thought I figured this one out, and was surprised by the ending when I was wrong about the twist. 

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I was really disappointed in this book. It was portrayed as memoir of a runaway who struggled to support herself. She wasn't really  a runaway, she was 18 the day she left the house. She "ranaway" to a friends house, where she overstayed her welcome, then went to another friends house where she overstayed her welcome again. She still went to high school everyday, and her dad (parents divorced) still sent her money every week. The second house she went to, the parents asked her to find a job and support herself. She not only refused to find a job, but she lied to the mom about it. She didn't feel like she should have to get a job and help out, she wanted to be a kid and enjoy her theater stuff. After she overstayed her welcome there, she then went to her dad's house in a different town and after that it was just  a basic custody battle between 2 divorced parents who hate each other, but since she was 18 it really was just a teenager, in my opinion being a brat. Neither parent were the all star parent that they should have been, and for that I feel bad for it. Other than that, I didn't really think this story was all that exciting. The ending was exciting and it worked out well, so there is that at least. 

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I felt like this story was sort of all over the place. It was a cool, creepy book, but there was a little too much romance in it for me personally. When I read a thriller/suspense, I do it b/c I don't want a love story. There was completely random sex scenes in the book that just irritated me. Romance, or a happy ending, okay whatever, but the actual sex scenes I could have done without. This could have been a 4 star for me, but couldn't after the sex.  

August Wrao-up

I read 10 books last month!! That's the most I've ever read!!!

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This book was a disappointment. It was very juvenile, which yeah okay, it is a YA book, but I think listening to it on Scribd ruined it for me. The narrator did a very good job of reading as a 16 year old girl, and the voice killed my soul. On the other side, I LOVED the movie, which is a first I think. 

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This book literally gave me chills! It was so good! Highly recommend this one.

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July Wrap up (In September)

Way behind, still, this is July's wrap up. Sometimes I hate reading so much in a month b/c I already don't remember what half of these were about. 

I read the other 2 books in this series, and loved them. I am sad to say I didn't love this one as much. 

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This one I do remember reading, and one thing I really liked was the main character was a "damaged soul" and had all these issues and she didn't use it as an excuse to keep her from being in a functional relationship like most fucked up women in books do. 

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I don't remember this one at all but Goodreads said I liked it enough for 4 stars, so I guess I liked it. 

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A Colleen book, what else is there to say...

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Pin-it Tuesday

This week I'm in trouble for sharing an article on my Facebook page that I related to. This week I let him get to me again. This week I'm broken again.

Pin-it Tuesday

The Pride festival is coming up on the 15th! I'm brainstorming now for some ideas on what I want to do with my hair. Two years ago, my sister dyed the underside of my hair rainbow, so I want to do something like it again this year. She's also preforming in the show this year I think? So I have to hurry up and pick something so I can find time with her to get it done! Because of my full time job I can't do all rainbow, or anything to crazy like I want to, but I think these ideas are cool!

This one I obviously can't do, but it's so pretty! I wish my hair was this thick

I like the braid on this one too, so I would ask her to style it this way so you can see the underside better 

This isn't rainbow but how gorgeous is this?! I wish I was a girl sometimes, and actually spent time doing my hair and make up....

June Wrap-up

I know it's basically September, but I wanted to update the last couple of months. I read a lot over the summer! Being able to listen to books at work again got me out of my reading slump, and I read a really good series this month too!

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This series has been on my TBR list for far too long, and I absolutely loved it!

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