5 Things about me

            This was a prompt in my blog group last month I think? At the time I didn't really think there were 5 interesting things about me so I skipped the prompt and did something else. But today I think I might have come up with some!


 1. I have a fear of the movie "ET". I hate that alien thing, he creeps me out. I don't care that he's meant to be friendly, and it's a kid movie, I HATE HIM! He gives me the creeps. I'm sure there is some traumatizing thing that happened to me that made me afraid of him, or maybe not, maybe he just grosses me out. But Drew Barrymore is a trooper for filming a whole movie with that creepy fucker, bc it damn sure wouldn't be me!


 2. I despise rubber-bands, I might even say I have a phobia. I hate them. If someone hands me something that's rolled up in a rubber-band I actually have panic attacks thinking about touching the rubber band and taking it off the paper or whatever. Just thinking about it gives me the heebee jeebies.


 3. I want to live in Rhode Island. There was a show years and years ago called Providence and the main character lived there and owned a dog bakery. After watching the show I knew that's what I wanted to do. Own a dog bakery (a barkery) living in Rhode Island. Don't know that it'll ever happen, but I would love to live there.


 4. What I wanted to be when I grew up (in order)....A teacher, A vet (until I was told I was too stupid to get into Va Tech-the best vet school in our area and where my uncle went), A therapist (which is funny b/c I hated every therapist my parents sent me to), A cop (until every guy I dated laughed at me for this) an ultrasound tech (until I realized I would be in school for 8 years to do it)

5. I'm obsessed with buying journals. I don't even write in them, I just want to own them.

Summertime!!

 


            The kids only have 2 more weeks in school and the summer is just around the corner! I don't usually enjoy the summer, heat-ew, but I am excited about the fun we are going to have! A friend of ours has a really big back yard, and we've been talking about maybe having a camp-out there. Mason has asked me to take him camping,and I thought starting out small would be smarter. So I've made a board on pintrest to keep up with ideas for if this ever actually happens! Here are some yummy food ideas I found, not that my son will eat any of it, but I will, and I will have fun making them.


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I made these at girl scout camp once and LOVED them!!

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Friday Reads

                             Of course it is Sunday and I am 2 days late with my Friday reads post, b/c that's how my life goes. But anyways here it is.

                           

                             The first book I'll post about, and book I was reading on Friday, is the 2nd book in a series, "The Breathing". The 1st book was amazing and I loved. I listened to it on audio while I was at work, and as soon as I finished the 1st, I immediately went and bought the 2nd. The 2nd book didn't impress me as much. It completely skipped over the end result of the 1st book, and moved onto Emma having a new issue. It annoyed me. Not to mention, I hated the mother character. Now that I've finished this, I can say it did get better, but I was disappointed that the entire book wasn't as good as the first.



                             The next book I wanted to post about is a book I haven't read yet, but my mom bought it for me the other day and I think it'll be the next book I read. Mystery/Suspense is probably one of my favorite genres to read, and I LOVED 'The Girl on The Train' so I am super excited about this,

Disney!!!!

               I'M GOING TO DISNEY!!!!
                           

                              My lifelong dream, and bucket list item, is happening!!!!! I can't wait!!!! In 4 months and 27 day, I'll be on the road to the most magical place on earth!!!!

Another Pin it Tuesday

   

                     

  I've been trying to find new things for dinner, cooking for one is not exciting. I don't have the desire/ energy lately to cook and every time I go to the store I usually just wander around trying to figure out what I want. Which causes me to leave frustrated and usually with food I don't know that I even want. But. Today I am trying out a new recipe! And I hope it's good!


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Pin it Tuesday

   


                    This week marks 3 years since I left my son's dad. 3 years later and I'm still not ready for another relationship and don't know that I ever will be. Having to deal with an emotionally abusive person is tough, and I hope I can notice the signs earlier on and avoid another toxic relationship.

                                              

Spotlight Saturday

                        

                      I've slept about 5 hours since Wednesday night, so this will be short, but I wanted to write for Spotlight Saturday!!

                      When I was 21 and engaged for the first time (Seriously, who thought THAT was a good idea....), I was excited to get married, but I was sad that I would *hopefully* stay married, and would never know what it was like to have my own place. At the time, I loved living with my then Fiance but still couldn't help wanting a place of my own. 

                      Well, 8 years and 2 failed engagements later I had my own place!! When I was looking for places after I split from my son's dad, I was convinced I would end up renting a shitty basement or having a roommate I would hate. But, I put on my big girl panties, got a 2nd job and found my own Apartment!! ALL mine!! I was very excited to finally have a place of my own. Growing up I shared a room with my 2 sisters, and didn't have my own room until I was 18. Hell, I didn't even have my own bed until then since we had bunk beds. Then when I split from my son's dad, he for some reason got our room and I was forced to share a room with my kid. We shared my king size bed for over a year. So to say we were both excited to have our own space again was an understatement. I was excited to start having people over, and show off my own place. As far as I know, none of my friends had ever had their own place, no roommates, so I felt special. The very first book club meeting after I moved I had at my place and it was great!! Even my best friends came, even though they are allergic to cats.

                This was great. I wanted a cat, got one. I didn't want to clean my house, so I didn't. Didn't want to change clothes after wearing the same pjs for 3 days, so I didn't. Wanted to binge watch shitty tv and eat crap food....go for it!! Thermostat stayed where I wanted it, my food stayed in my fridge, I was honestly starting to think if I would ever live with someone again!!

                 The main reason I wanted to write though was to talk about my library!!!! We don't eat at our dining room table so for months my son and I have talked about turning our dining room into a library. My best friends husband came over yesterday and put my book case together so I can finally put my books in the "Library". I still have some work to do, I want to decorate the bookshelf a little, but I am so excited about this and I love it!! Here are some before and after pics.

                                                                 

                                                                        Before

After

Another good note to all this, I dropped off 3 boxes of stuff to goodwill. It's stuff I packed up probably a year ago and just have been too lazy to drop it off. I know I have some more work to do, but it's a start! And I've re done the living room a little too. So now, with a little organization I love my little apartment even more. 

Book Review

 Two Kisses for Maddy by:Matt Logelin



                             A friend of mine suggested this book to me for the read-a-thon, I didn't get around to reading it then, but picked it up the other day and devoured it. I loved this book so much and I am horrible at book reviews, but I wanted to try and review this one.


                             Now, I said I loved this book, but several things he wrote about really errked me and really that's what I want to write about. In the book, him and his wife met in high school, survived a long term long distance relationship and got married, They loved each other like a movie, and were very excited about their baby coming into the world. The pregnancy was a high risk one, and Liz spent a majority of her pregnancy in the hospital. Their baby girl was born 7 weeks early and was put in the NICU. Liz couldn't see Maddy for 24 hours. When her 24 hours were up, they got her out of bed, walked her around a little since she hadn't stood or walked since she was admitted weeks earlier. She felt dizzy, which Matt was told was normal, and minutes later she was dead. Blood clot from her legs reached her lungs and she died. Just like that Matt was now a single dad. He had no idea what he was doing and he was worried about messing Maddy up.


                          Maddy stayed in the NICU for 2 more weeks and then was allowed to go home. And this is where the book started to annoy me. Not because of anything he was doing, but because of how he was treated when he went out with Maddy. He talked about several times where he went out and he would get looks, and stares because he was a big, bearded man, pushing around a pink covered babygirl.  Some women even came up to him and straight up asked where her mother was!! WHO DOES THIS?!?!? TO A COMPLETE STRANGER?!?! I was so angry!!!! Matt handled it a lot better than I would have, either responding nicely that she had passed away, or sometimes abruptly saying she died, depending on his mood. But any time it happened he was equally offended and flustered. Seriously, who the fuck does this?!?! If it were a female out pushing her baby not a single person would come up and ask where her husband was. Every time this happened to him I would get SO angry!!!! People have no damn manners anymore. And I hope every single person felt like shit afterwards for asking a question they didn't deserve to know the answer to. Yes, I will admit I think it's adorable when I see dad's out with their kids, even maybe makes them more "Attractive". Maybe it's because I don't remember my dad doing things with us, or maybe it's because of other reasons. Maybe it's because society puts it in our heads that men don't know what they are doing when it comes to kids, and that they shouldn't be out alone without the mom. But regardless of the reason I would NEVER go up to a man out with his kid and ask where the mother is!!!! There is something about kids, that makes people forget their manners. The amount of times I was asked inappropriate, tactless, questions when I was pregnant STILL makes me angry to think about. UGH! It's bad enough the man's wife died, the only women he's ever loved, and now he has to relive that every time so nosy ass person wants to ask a completely rude question?!?!

                     Anyways, I loved the book besides that. I loved how amazing Matt did with a premi no matter how scared he was or how incompetent he felt he was, he did it. And he did it alone. His parents tried to hire night help for him, but after 2 nights, he decided he could do it on his own. I loved how he stayed close with not only Liz's family, but her friends as well. Anyone could see Maddy anytime they wanted. He traveled to Minnesota multiple times a year so the grandparents could see Maddy. Just all around a great story. I went to follow his blog that he refrences several times in the book and he hasn't wrote for a couple years now and that makes me sad, because I wanted to see how Maddy was doing.

Prompt day!!

                I have some time to kill before Book Club tonight so here is my Prompt for today.

       My Family is bigger than most of my friends and I kinda like it that way. I'm the oldest of 4 and as much as I probably hated growing up with 3 siblings, I like it now. 

        My brother Eric, is 18 months younger than me and I like to think of him as the nomad of the family. He moves around a lot,and usually has nothing with him but a couple bags of clothes to carry from one place to the next.  He is a little more distant than the rest of us. He doesn't have a relationship with my mom anymore, which breaks my heart. He will keep in contact randomly with us, but at one point we were really close and hung out all the time. I guess life dragged us apart, but I check in every once in awhile to make sure he's doing well. He is a chef and went to school up north for it.

      Next is my sister who I can't believe will be 27 this year. She went to school in Charlotte for Physc and now lives in Seattle with her best friend. She's been there about 2 years now, and like me, works overnight grocery. I guess we are alike in that sense.  I miss her but she comes to visit a couple times a year and I might go see her in September!! 

     My baby sister....she is 22, almost 23 and the baby so naturally shes spoiled rotten. She went to CATEC for Cosmotolgy but didn't like it. So she is the hairstylist of the family, but works as server/hostess. She's crazy, but I love hanging out with her when she can fit us into her busy schedule. She was born when I was in 3rd grade, and I helped out with her a lot when I was younger but the age difference was too much I guess when I got older and I found her to be a pain in the ass. Now, the age difference doesn't seem to be that big, and it's weird to actually go to lunch with her and have grown up conversations with her. To me she will always be my baby sister though.

      My parents separated when I moved Florida. It was weird to come home to visit and have to split my time up. Since it was still pretty new (about 4 months after my dad moved out) the first time I visted, it was very awkward. But by the time I moved back, and my dad moved back to VA (he tried out Florid too and realized it sucked so he came back) then I realized what I always knew, They would be much happier split up. As much as it sucked, the tension around them was much easier to handle. And since the waited till we were all grown and graduated, there was no arguing about custody.

                                         This was the last family picture, mothers day 2013. 

Top 5

I had a hard time trying to come up with 5 fandoms today, but I came up with 4!

The first would probably be the obvious for anyone that knows me. The little mermaid and mermaids in general. Who didn't want to be Ariel when they were a kid?! Mine just also carried into "Adulthood". I wanted a Disney themed wedding, my bridesmaids were going to dress as their favorite princesses, and had planned on wearing the "Ariel" design from Alfred Angelo.

Second, I would have to say Dachshunds!!! I've been in love with these dogs since I can remember. My son even got me a Dachshunds necklace for mothers day one year. I'm sure there was some influence from my mom, but she swears he picked it out himself.  I was lucky enough to have a dachshund mix for a few years, and will have another one day! I'm a big advocate for "Adopt. Don't shop" but I might have to shell out $700 for one of these one day..... 

Third, Collen Hoover!! I read one of her novellas a couple years ago that someone in book club sent me and was instantly a fan! She is going to be at Book Convention in June and I'm really sad I can't find anyone to go with me to meet her. 

Fourth has to be Twilight! I blame Twilight for getting me back into reading, so I will always be obsessed with the books/movies, no matter how much I get made fun of lol 

Read-A-Thon Wrap up

                 

                   I wasn't feeling well on Friday, so I didn't do an entry about my TBR pile for Dewey's on Saturday. I went to the library Wednesday and picked out some books. I had told myself I was going to read books that I already owned since I now have so many unread books, thanks to the book sales I went to earlier last month. But, of course, I had picked out a small pile of books to add to my pile at home, and of course, didn't end up reading any of them. I didn't meet my goal of 800 pages either, but I'm going to do a short review of the books I did read!

First up was "Before I Fall" by: Lauren Oliver
               I was already currently reading this book and wanted to finish the last 50 pages or so for the challenge. I liked the book well enough but the ending pissed me off. It made little sense to me. Maybe it was b/c I was also trying to read during my sons soccer game, which meant a page or 2 and then had to stop, then a page or 2 then had to stop. But I really wasn't into it anymore, and I don't understand WHY it ended like that. I plan on seeing the movie and maybe that will help clarify.
 

Second book was "Ten Thousand Skies Above You" by: Claudia Grey
               This was an audio book that I planned on listening to in the car when I needed to be mobile. B/c it was on audible I wasn't able to switch from listening to book form so I didn't get to get very far in this book until I went to work. Second book in a series, and I fell in love with the first one and was really looking forward to the second. I was disappointed that I did not like this one as much as the second. It didn't keep my focus as much, and I personally felt like it dragged on. I felt like if the author really wanted to she could have split it into 2 books. I do enjoy the store, more than I thought, though. And I'm already on the third book!

Third book was "Milk and Honey" by: Rupi Kaur
                This book really needs it's own entry and maybe I will post my favorite poems in a separate one. But, this is a poetry book I got for Christmas from my secret Santa in book club. I found this book in B&N like a year ago and just knew I had to have it. I loved it. Besides the fact that it was quick and got my page count up, I just really needed to read this book. Amazing book.


Besides a few random pages in a couple other books that's what I read for the read-a-thon. And, I just updated my Goodreads. Looks like I'm one book ahead of schedule for my challange!!